whats the point
whats the point of being good
whats the point of treating
everyone so good
in the end
they will only turn back and hurt you
and nv knew how much they hurt you
tears are silent
no one knows
no one apologise
cause they only care about their faces
if only ppl know how to repent
then there be love in this world
Sunday, November 15, 2009 | Sunday, November 15, 2009 | 0 Comment
depressing
dun know what happen recently
really in the very deep point
really going to have depression soon
dun know why dun have the mood
to study , to eat , to do anything
it is not a matter about anything
but about how much im hurt
its not that im still angry with you
but its im still hurt inside
i have never been so hurt
never had i cried so long
even till ytd at night
i cried until i finally fell asleep
but now its so freaking hurting
really very pain in the heart
tears keep flowing
cried until eyes swollen
who knows .. who cares ?
but must thank sister
for being there with me
consoling me along the way
i seriously dun know what to do
i dun know what else i can do
today even everyone in school
can see that im very depressed
hardly i didnt smile a lot
hardly i nv joke with them
i feel like shit
the feeling is so shitty
will anyone understand ?
Wednesday, November 04, 2009 | Wednesday, November 4, 2009 | 0 Comment
happy birthday to me
today my birthday
and i enjoyed it
thank you friends and family
which make it possible
for me to smile throughout the day
I LOVE YOU ALL (:
so below are the thanks i want to give
sorry if i miss out any names
i appreciate all of the
gift and wishes you all gave
thank you evelyn , audrey and lee inn
next time i use le
then go hold your hands
then see smooth a not ok (:
thank you chanlin for your penguins
even though got comments on your gift
you should know .. heehee
but i still like it
its the thoughts that counts right (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTty-JCwlhM
thanks kah beng for your present
really a surprise for me
i jealous le cause
your piano skill so good la
never knew it all along
haha .. thanks (:
this present include a birthday cake also
thank you grace , shuqing , elyn , maggie
the cake you brought was nice
haha 吃在嘴里 .. 甜在心里 (:
dennis thank you for your present
the necklace really special
never see a dolphin necklace before
the card also very nice
thank you so much (:
thank you darling
even though its a card
but its very sweet of you
i also know because of me
you went to host a surprise
thank you i really touched
you see make me shed tears on bdae :P
other than that also got sms wishes
a few by face to face
(not in order or biasness)
- andrew cheers
- mr cheok
- wanting
- lee inn
- dao kia
- dennis
- chan lin
- zhiwei
- jermaine
- elisse
- andrea
- mat noh
- shi wei
- grace
- wei jie
- wei jian
- ncc
- gabriel
- wee mun
- venky
- chee chye
- hui xiang
- yee da
- yong kian
- yew choong
- athar
- jiaxuan
- subaa
- puay ling
- satheesh
- andrea
- kah beng
- pan
- steffi
okay that is all i can think le
sorry if i miss anyone out ok
it is not intentionally
tell me if i miss you out
i put you back in ok
i really appreciate all things done
to make up my wonderful day today
thank you and love you !
today lesson was a bit bored
but still acceptable
the surprise was really touching
then we went for cheers meeting
and then to mac to solve my
MACSPICY CRAVINGS ..
then to supermart for cheers
then billard with nic , elisse and darling
after that went home with darling
had dinner with family
follwed by cake session again
and then fruits session
that end the day
few more minutes before it all end
the photos taken with my family
i will post it tomorrow
if i have enough time
but sure have enough time de
today im 18
one year older le
one year have passed le
today also mark a important day to me
it will always remind me
but i will not be affected
because i knew i had to be strong
18 , no longer a small girl
i must grow up , grow slim and grow tall
wakaka .. i only have one wish
that is all my friends and family
can stay happy forever
then they happy , i happy
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 | Tuesday, October 20, 2009 | 0 Comment
working and sick
working and working
so hardly came online
and of course hardly blog
been 2 weeks since i blogged
other than working
for this whole week i also sick
so also no energy do anything
ate some contagious food
in the end food poisoning
stupid food
cause me to have 10 times runs
and one time vomit
in the end have to go see doctor
quite expensive but still okay
altogether with around 6 medicine
it cost up to $28
so had to lie on the bed straight
for 2 whole days to heal
until the runs stop
on wednesday
suppose to go out with my kor
but so so so sorry
that i cant fulfill my promise
to go out with you
sorry sorry sorry
sorry sorry sorry
then on thur and today
worked as a surveyor
for long john silver
on their grilled items
on monday going dental
with darling
for regular annual cleaning
heeheehee ..
by then will have white teeths
Saturday, October 17, 2009 | Saturday, October 17, 2009 | 0 Comment
tired but fun
cheers training started on tuesday
till today is the last day of work
only for this week
still got next week
but im still happy heehee
a lot of carrying
a lot of learning
a lot of laughter
a lot of jokes
a lot of bickering
a lot of eating
a lot of drinking
and most most importantly
A LOT OF WALKING !!!
and that makes up the whole training
work start next monday
cant wait though
hope everyday till the last day
will be super duper fun
i know i will miss them
after friday [last day of work]
was considering something
working there part time
still under consideration
factors to consider would be
1] time
2] activity
3] studies
Friday, October 02, 2009 | Friday, October 2, 2009 | 0 Comment
finally posting consistently
haha like finally i blogging today
despite i posted something yesterday
now finally consistent le
today early in the morning
bused to meet darling
then we take bus together
to the cheers headquarters
like same routine as monday :X
today was one full day
so around 130 we were dismissed
from the headquarter at aljunied
BUT ITS NOT OVER YET !!
we must report to individual cheers
that were allocated to us
me and chocolate is at NUS cheers
different from darling though ):
however , after reporting
everything changed for the better
it was so fun at the cheers
really enjoying myself
and most importantly can earn $$$
worked till 645 with chocolate
tomorrow work start at 10 - 6
darling came to find me
so went to her house
watched tv then dinner and tv again
then her mum drove me home
very very very very very good right (:
other than that happy thing
the rest was like shitty shit shit
after that i went to bath
however , meanwhile when i was bathing
suddenly this thought came to my mind
that my korkor will online somehow
i dismissed the thought because
i take it as missing him too much
after bathing
i started watching television
halfway , subconsiously
i picked up my phone and saw an sms
from sec school friend .. mat noh
stating my korkor will be online
and asked me to be online before 2415
i quickly look at my house clock
and it shows that it was 2425
LIKE WHAT IS THIS WHAT IS THIS !!
i rushed all the way to room
and quickly on the computer
and logged in online to msn
TOO LATE .. TOO FREAKING LATE
I MISSED HIS TIMING AND HE IS OFFLINE !
haha .. okay okay i be frank
admitted that i almost cried
the feeling is so freaking bad
no one to blame but just
me me me me me and lastly me
for not taking thoughts seriously
really very very sad after that
so now im blogging to let it off
i wonder what you doing now in KL now
Tuesday, September 29, 2009 | Tuesday, September 29, 2009 | 1 Comment
ups and downs
going to be a series of events again
so sorry so sorry so sorry
have not been blogging for a week
23th september
darling , chocolate and elisse
came to my house in the morning
because today was timetable selecting
i was the laggiest one
and once again i cant get in
but in the end yk came out
and i went in
so whole day was trying very hard
to find slot for yk to get in
great credits to :
darling
elisse
chocolate
chanlin
we went to playground
went slacking at lot one also
to see the pictures
can go to darling blog (:
24th september
the most important thingy
once in a year thing for individuals
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEW CHOONG (:
26th september
went to mentoring
stanley was well behaved today
was enjoying the session
and while teaching stanley
tritrik came and talk to me
i didnt approached him this time
was so freaking super duper happy
because the barrier between us is REMOVED (:
after that we went to playground
and started playing
pure playing .. no letter cards
and after that meet darling
and went her house to prepare
FOR THE NIGHT BBQ !!
help to pierce the sotongs
and wrap the fish after lunch
then came chocolate
and i and darling took our bath
of course seperately
and then off we go to the bbq pit
sang birthday song for yew choong
know one new friend named SHIRO
ended late at night as we sat
by the swimming pool to start the
DJ-MAX "sorry" battling :X
only those who went understand
then actually intend to cab home
but then ended up sleepover
at darling house with mum approval
was suppose to gossip de
that was the actual plan
but it turn out we both pigged :P
27th september
woke up at 8
i think its very rare for my case
cause at ppl house
not very good to lie down there
like a big fat pig right
ate breakfast with darling family
then she acc me out to wait for bus
takeaway lunch for mum and siblings
after that i did the housechore
then i bathed and bring sister to lot 1
to buy her "JIHOO" plastic file
cost ~ $8 but its alright la
she like it can le .. she happy i happy
she keep smiling until teeth almost drop
while i keep on disturbing her
then went to eat with family dinner
brother went to had a hair cut
and i talked and play with the
two adorable fat goldfish at the salon
then went to buy stickers for mentoring
since they are so obedient
i think they deserve a reward they like
then reached home watch variety show
haiz .. kor leaving for KL tmr
so webcammed with him at night
realise a lot of things nowadays
we are still as close no matter
what has happened in the past 6 years
28th september
BON VOYAGE KORKOR (:
seeing you on thursday night
woke up in early morning
to attend cheers training
today was theory based
but it was a cheerful session
starting thought the trainer
was a bit strict
but he turned out alright
had lunch outside
despite the currypuffs , breads
and beverage prepared for us
but it was really nice and splendid
this whole week will have training
but tomorrow have some hands on
i think should be more enjoyable
finally i finish all these days events le
recently talked to my cher and darling
i thought through a lot a lot of things
now im addicted to this song "适应"
everytime i hear this song
will have the tension to start crying
i wonder when my heart
going to adapt to the beautiful silence
should i or should i not ?
will i and will i not ?
can i or can i not ?
did i or did i not ?
to or not to ?
a fact that cannot be changed
a fate that can be controlled
will i be able to manage
or will i choose to run away
01102009 = new start
is it really a new start
Monday, September 28, 2009 | Monday, September 28, 2009 | 0 Comment
